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Being here... it breaks my heart. I want to go home. I miss the trees and the water and the mountains. I miss my pets, and Lance, Linda and Colton, and Mom and John, and my grandparents. I miss the pond and the cabin. I miss my friends and lifted trucks. I miss beer and late nights. I don't want to be here anymore. The girls don't like me, but the staff and all the guyslove me. I don't want all this attention. I do well here, but that doesn't mean I like it. There's nothing for me back home... but I miss it anyway. This is the biggest challenge I've ever faced. It doesn't matter how many things from home I bring to place in my room. It just makes it seem even more out of place. I want to lay in bed with my cat and dog. I want to sit on the couch and watch movies with my family. I want to smell lavender and hear the sound of coyotes outside my window at night. I want to swim in the pond and feel the mud between my toes. I want to ride on the back of a horse and feel the wind in my hair and see the ground rush beneath me. I want to be free. I want to go home.
Hey, Babe! I'm sorry you're feeling homesick. When I moved to Walla Walla, when I was @ your age, I remember how much I missed the trees! I, personally, never found a "cure" for homesickness, but... it DOES get easier. I know distraction helps - shouldn't be a problem staying busy there, eh? (lol) Have fun. Laugh alot. Avoid getting over-tired. It's hard to think logically when your brain is mushy! And if you need to curl u p and wallow yourself to sleep occasionally, that's perfectly natural Things'll look better in the morning, I promise!
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ReplyDeleteHi Honey: The “I want to go home” feeling is to be expected. What is happening here is you are growing up. It is all part of it. You are going through what all of us did at one time or another. Remember, the pond to swim in, the mud between your toes, laying in bed with pets and watching movies all day are part of your past and now you have to move on. They will all be here when you come back. You are gearing up for more mature things and nobody said growing up was easy, just necessary. We miss you as much as you miss here and us. I joined the Army at 17. I hid under the covers and wrote letters with a flashlight, home to my family and my girl friend. The time came when I got “into” what I was doing and things went very well. You will too. For the first time you can be you. Do it kid. You are a born leader.....your grandpa is a good judge of character and you are a winner. The behind baggage went and I never left my family ties, just grew up and saw them for what they were.....family and a terrific one at that. You are beautiful and growing up that way. By the way, I came home a young man. Much different and better, prouder and more mature than when left. It looked good on me and I knew it. You are not the first to go through this, only the most recent. We love you here. Don’t forget that. We will come over and see you before to long.
Grandpa
Hey Kiddo, Its Michelle here. I'm an expert in home sickness..I left Scotland just barely 18 and I can tell you, "This too shall pass hun"... you just follow all that passion and desire inside you and it will all be worth it. I am, as a mother, so impressed and proud!! I have to say I haven't been into reading much these last few years and your reminding me what I'm missing!! You have me captivated with your words of wisdom and honesty =) I miss your smiles around here.
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