Frustration and Philosophy

Day 211, 58th Vocational Trade Day--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I've been appointed Assistant Foreman in trade, along with Sterling (Shawntelle is Foreman), and many of the guys are not happy about it. One in particular. He started a whole thing saying that I was flirting with my instructor, and I didn't deserve the position. There's a lot of talk about me being power hungry and abusing my position.

Well the whole thing about my instructor is absurd, this person only started that rumor because he must be jealous and angry with me because I got the position. And as far as foremanship goes, yes, I am serious about trade and completing as soon as possible and I'm going to try my best not to screw up this opportunity. I admit that I don't know everything there is to know about trade, I'm still learning, and I have a lot to learn. But rather than rag on me, why can't they help me so I'm ready for Foreman once Shawntelle leaves?

As far as trying to differentiate between what's fact and what's fiction, I've decided to stop trying to figure it out, and instead just lay everything out on the table and take it for what it is. There are too many variables, too many 'what ifs'. And there are too many things along with too many people involved that - in the long run - will have absolutely no impression on my life whatsoever.

So I'm not sure if I've said this before, but if I have I really need to learn how to follow my own advice.

 Don't stress about the past, because you can't change it.  Don't worry about the future because it hasn't happened yet. And enjoy the present because every moment you live becomes a moment in your past, and how you live it determines what will happen in your future and who you will become. If you don't like who you are, the only person you have to blame is yourself, and the only one who can help you is you.