Day 83----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Pretty slow and not much to talk about, but I had fun with Jamie and his family. His mom really liked me and she said I'm an excellent house guest and that I am certainly welcome anytime. I met some of Jamie's friends and we stayed out until about 10 or 11. Don't worry we didn't do anything illegal. :P
Jamie and I had a really good time. We stayed up late watching movies and drinking hot cocoa with peppermint ice cream. It was nice to spend some quality time with him and get to know how he is in the real world, instead of only seeing Job Corps behavior. It was very relaxing and turns out that we may be the only sane people at Fort Simcoe. I'm very grateful that he invited me for the holiday; I really needed to get away.
I hated to come back today. I don't like it here, the emotional atmosphere is depressing to the soul. I'm finding that it's very easy to slip back into the place of darkness that I was stuck in for almost 2 1/2 months. I'm up and down. I'm afraid that I really may have bipolar / hypomania disorder. I don't know why I'm so anxious all the time. I'm in trade, I've almost comepleted G.E.D., and I've made my impression on the staff that I am a good student and can be trusted. I AM O-K-A-Y! If I repeat that over and over to myself it makes me feel a bit better. I have to remind myself that I have found solid ground. All the peices are falling into place as they should. Relax, everything is going to be alright. Remember everything is as it should be. I am okay.
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