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Day 177, 34th Vocational Trade Day----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------



Ugh, finally, I have time to sit down and actually write a little bit. I forgot to update you on the Day Pass situation. They (the residential living advisers, I believe) have switched Day Pass back to the old rules. We leave at 1100, right after account, and we drive into Yakima. Then, we all unload and we're free until 1530. However, if you are over the age of 18, you can stay in town, you just have to have a ride back to center. Still not equal rights, but at least I can go into town again; I'm letting it go for now.


I had a really great day today. It drug on forEVER but it was still a good day. I was able to work one on one with my head instructor, Scott, and I was assigned several of my own tasks. I was afraid I'd mess up but it was nice not having to work with anyone, to have to share anything. That must be the only child in me speaking out!

I've quite suddenly become appreciative of everything I have. I kept saying that everyone here took things for granted but I've realized that I have been doing exactly the same. I'm no better than anyone else around here, as much as I like to think so sometimes...
I'm a lot happier than I have been in a long time. It's like this cloud has finally lifted and I finally understand what it is I really want and I love the fact that I'm alive today. It's been almost a year since my close friend, Tyler Braithwaite, passed away. It must be that, and a whole number of other occurrences that have brought me to this astounding outlook on life. The only one holding myself back this whole time was me, and it feels damn good to let go.